But everything gets slow.

I feel myself turning into my own mother - nothing hasn´t ever been enough for her in her entire life. Like for her, for me it´s very important that I get exactly what I want. I want to find what I´m looking for.

I´ve become estranged with some of my friends and that is just awkward. It´s insulting if I notice someone letting our friendship fall to a wayside.

I feel like I´m just waiting for he to let me down and leave me alone crying. From the first day I warned him that I´m a maniac and I don´t have any good plans for the future. I get confused every day and I just don´t know what I want.

Don´t break, don´t break my heart - and I won´t break your heart-shaped glasses.